A podcast about guilt, caregiving, forgiveness…and discovering that sometimes surviving your family is the beginning of finding yourself.
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I didn’t kill my mother.
But for years…
I believed I had.
This is the true story of what really happened.
TRAILER: HOW I KILLED MY MOTHER
Told with humor, candor, and an occasional trip into the spiritual and unexplained, How I Killed My Mother explores what it means to forgive a parent, forgive yourself, survive grief, and discover that our memories of the people who raised us aren’t always the whole story.
This trailer introduces the story and the journey ahead.
Start here. Then listen to Episode 1 of How I Killed My Mother.
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HOW I KILLED MY MOTHER is a deeply personal memoir podcast from writer and storyteller Jon-David, author of Mafia Hairdresser and The Glow Stick Gods. How I Killed My Mother is about mothers and sons, complicated family relationships, guilt, grief, forgiveness, and what happens when we finally confront the stories we’ve spent a lifetime telling ourselves.
Despite the title, this isn’t a murder podcast.
It’s the story of a son who spent years believing he was somehow responsible for his mother’s death—and the unexpected journey that followed as he began looking back at their life together, his childhood, her choices, his choices, and the complicated love between them.
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Jon-David’s personal journey podcast, How I Killed My Mother, is such a hit that he wrote a book. Sign up for email list to know whent the book will be published.
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The author, Jon-David became the caretaker for his father with Parkinson’s. This insightful spiritual story will be told on the How I Killed My Mother podcast in 2026. Sign up for email list.
Bubble Boy: Growing Up With a Sick Sibling and Learning How to Love
Sometimes love doesn't look like equality. Sometimes it looks like giving each child exactly what they need.My mother loved my brother more than me. There. I said it. Before anybody calls their therapist on my behalf, let me explain something. I'm perfectly fine with...
The Ones Who Got Away: Healing the Unfinished Relationships of My Life
What if the person who got away wasn't actually the one who got away?What if they were a teacher? That's one of the strangest things I discovered while writing How I Killed My Mother. I started this memoir thinking I was going to work out my relationship with my...
Meet My Mom: Understanding the Woman Who Shaped My Life
Years after portraying his mother through the anger of his younger self in Mafia Hairdresser, Jon-David revisits their complicated relationship with a different perspective. Time, forgiveness and writing revealed something unexpected: understanding his mother meant understanding his own part in their story.
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