A podcast about guilt, caregiving, forgiveness…and discovering that sometimes surviving your family is the beginning of finding yourself.
WELCOME
I didn’t kill my mother.
But for years…
I believed I had.
This is the true story of what really happened.
Episode 01 : HOW I KILLED MY MOTHER
Told with humor, candor, and an occasional trip into the spiritual and unexplained, How I Killed My Mother explores what it means to forgive a parent, forgive yourself, survive grief, and discover that our memories of the people who raised us aren’t always the whole story.
This episode introduces the story and the journey ahead.
Start here. Then listen to Episode 2 through 24 of How I Killed My Mother.
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Let’s not lose touch.
One of the strange things about getting older is realizing how many people have passed through your life.
Friends. Family. Coworkers. Clients. Neighbors.
People you laughed with, cried with, worked with, got into trouble with—and people you simply assumed would always be around.
Then life happens. People move. We move. Years go by.
And suddenly you realize you haven’t spoken to someone you once cared about in five years. Or ten. Or twenty.
So if this podcast puts me in touch with you, I’m glad I made it.
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I’ll occasionally send you something about the podcast, my writing, what I’m working on next, or whatever strange turn my life takes from here.
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HOW I KILLED MY MOTHER is a deeply personal memoir podcast from writer and storyteller Jon-David, author of Mafia Hairdresser and The Glow Stick Gods. How I Killed My Mother is about mothers and sons, complicated family relationships, guilt, grief, forgiveness, and what happens when we finally confront the stories we’ve spent a lifetime telling ourselves.
Despite the title, this isn’t a murder podcast.
It’s the story of a son who spent years believing he was somehow responsible for his mother’s death—and the unexpected journey that followed as he began looking back at their life together, his childhood, her choices, his choices, and the complicated love between them.
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