A podcast about guilt, caregiving, forgiveness…and discovering that sometimes surviving your family is the beginning of finding yourself.
WELCOME
I didn’t kill my mother.
But for years…
I believed I had.
This is the true story of what really happened.
TRAILER: HOW I KILLED MY MOTHER
Told with humor, candor, and an occasional trip into the spiritual and unexplained, How I Killed My Mother explores what it means to forgive a parent, forgive yourself, survive grief, and discover that our memories of the people who raised us aren’t always the whole story.
This trailer introduces the story and the journey ahead.
Start here. Then listen to Episode 1 of How I Killed My Mother.
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HOW I KILLED MY MOTHER is a deeply personal memoir podcast from writer and storyteller Jon-David, author of Mafia Hairdresser and The Glow Stick Gods. How I Killed My Mother is about mothers and sons, complicated family relationships, guilt, grief, forgiveness, and what happens when we finally confront the stories we’ve spent a lifetime telling ourselves.
Despite the title, this isn’t a murder podcast.
It’s the story of a son who spent years believing he was somehow responsible for his mother’s death—and the unexpected journey that followed as he began looking back at their life together, his childhood, her choices, his choices, and the complicated love between them.
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Jon-David’s personal journey podcast, How I Killed My Mother, is such a hit that he wrote a book. Sign up for email list to know whent the book will be published.
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The author, Jon-David became the caretaker for his father with Parkinson’s. This insightful spiritual story will be told on the How I Killed My Mother podcast in 2026. Sign up for email list.
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